Hi guys!! I wanted to take this post and explain why I’ve been off with the posting this week. This is my first week being back in London. It’s been kind of an adjustment for a multitude of reasons. Firstly, because of the jet lag, but I’ve also, as you know, been trying to make an adjustment in my eating habits. So trying to get my workout schedule in order has been a bit rough. But thirdly, I’m here without Chandler. It’s really strange coming back alone to a home that you’ve built with your best friend. He and I got into such a great routine with the blog. He would help me so much with the photography, but more importantly he would inspire me to continue doing what I love. He was my partner in this venture and now I have to learn how to do this by myself. Learning to take my own pictures has been a challenge, but I’ve noticed something else has also been holding me back…
Sometimes when I’m out on the street with my little tripod and my Iphone taking pictures for the blog, I feel embarrassed. People walk by and they snicker or sneer at me because I’m sure I look super silly. At first I was embarrassed by this, so I would find an empty street to take pictures so no one could watch me. But I was sitting in Joe and the Juice the other day wondering what do I have to feel embarrassed about? I love blogging and I love taking pictures. Why should I feel silly for doing what I love?
The more I started to think about it the more I realized that my embarrassment was stemming from my own insecurity. Becoming a blogger means that I put my heart and soul online. I’m bearing my whole world to the whole world and that means sometimes I will be ridiculed. But, the whole purpose of me starting this blog was to be a ways for me to gain security in my own self. The only way that I will get stronger is to recognize that I am happy being a blogger. To me, that’s my dream job. Why should I feel embarrassed to tell people that’s what I do? Why should I care if that’s not good enough for some people?
I saw this video and it really inspired me to be secure in being a blogger. I’ve been told my whole life who to be, and what the best path in life to take is. Part of my embarrassment definitely stems from those voices in my head saying I’m not taking the right path. And maybe I’m not! But this is my decision and I’m loving it so far. I’m doing what everyone says I can’t. So, watch this video and do what you can’t!!